And I Just Thought I’d Started to Go Numb

Thursday, August 16, 2007

5:37 PM - And I Just Thought I’d Started to Go Numb
Current mood: blank
Category: Life


I'd reached this point today where I thought maybe I was just done, done with thinking, done with crying, done with trying to handle situations that were/are/remain out of my control, just plain done. Then I thought, maybe I've just started going numb. Feeling numb and ambivalent about things that have been and things that are to come. But numb and ambivalent are a good thing. They're stages. Stages that are further from where I started.


Then I came across my horoscope for the day and had a new way of thinking about where I am... maybe it's true... maybe it's just entertainment... maybe it's just a wishful projection... either way... it's a little comforting.

"Your emotions have dried up a bit, and the feeling isn't entirely unpleasant. Your deep and wild feelings have cooked under the heat of intense interactions. Instead of dreaming on the sidelines, you have become a player in the game. Don't worry; the waters will return. In the meantime, enjoy your newfound ability to think about your life in a detached manner."