15 Weeks...

Hi Sexy,

I can hardly believe that it has only been 15 weeks... it feels like an eternity. I was reading a blog today and they had pictures of Canon Beach, Oregon and it brought me back to the special week we spent out there... walking down the beach... listening to the sounds of the shore from the comfort of our room... going back down to the beach in the freezing cold just to feel the sand between our toes one more time... finding the little "hut" that someone had made... looking for crabs... shells... driftwood... I can still smell the seaweed... I can still taste the salt from the spray... I remember the views from that amazing restaurant...but most of all... if I close my eyes really hard... and furrow my brow... and lift my shoulders... and try... try... try.... I can still feel my hand in yours while we walk down the beach... smell your cologne... and feel the warmth of your breath on my neck as we stop to watch the sunset.

I miss you Waddles. It's not getting any easier. I wish I would have asked to change your mind when you called from the airport that Thursday afternoon... maybe you would've stayed home... maybe you would've still gone... I just wish there was something more I could have done. Then maybe, just maybe, you'd still be here with me... and we'd be on that vacation back to Oregon we were planning for this October.

I love you Honey. There's such a void without you here... and while I know you're "here" it's just not the same...

Love always,
Tara Ann