24 Weeks

Hi Sexy,

It's officially Christmas morning... but it does not feel like Christmas at all. I'm numb. I'm struggling just to keep the appearance of wanting to be around anyone up... and that's not fair to my youngest brother. Maybe the morning light will bring a change of heart... but right now I'm in a pretty dark place and an even darker mood. I'm cold. I'm tired. I'm lonely. I miss you. I just want to curl up under the sheets and not come out for a couple of days... weeks... hell even months... but I can't... because someone has got to pay the bills... and it's my oh so favorite time of the year... and with THREE full business days left there's a lot of tax and estate planning still left in the hopper... ode to having been out of the office more than I can handle... it's put everyone behind. Bossman is being very gracious about it all... but I know that this is the first time in 7 years of working with him that we are pushing things right up to the 31st... speaking of Bossman... he gave out a card with the standard cake this year and it was a beautiful picture of his daughter's wedding that we missed... we were looking so forward to spending the weekend down at the Ranch... and it was a lovely affair from the looks of things.

I have so many questions for you tonight... what's Christmas like up there? Is it all true or just one elaborate hoax made up by man to make us feel better about our crappy lives? How I miss your antagonizing me over religion and life... but now you know... so who was right?

Love always and forever, and even beyond that,
Tara Ann