I know that more people than myself are struggling this month. For me it's more Jim's upcoming birthday than it is the actual holidays... and I think for a few others that may be it as well.
It's no secret that I believe in more than what we can see... that I've even reached out to a few psychics throughout the last couple of months. So when I was approached by a loved one about a possible message from Jim, I listened. When she referenced a song that had been on my mind lately I really listened. Especially since it had only been a couple of days since I had listened to the version of the song found in the movie I referenced in a post here. Dolly Parton was the first person I ever heard sing it. Whitney Houston's version is one of the most powerful, intense, and soul touching versions I've ever heard:
The thing is... As worried as I have been about both kids, Andrew has been weighing on my mind the most this week... so much so that I've asked specifically about him in conversations I have had with those who might know... and always I get the same answer... as if it's a repeat of a conversation I had with his father... nobody talks to him on the phone... because Andrew isn't a phone talker... you're lucky if he's the one who answers the phone because then you can pin him down for a moment... so it was no surprise when I was told that there was a chance his last conversation with his dad was one in which he felt he might have come off as blowing Jim off. One in which Andrew might still have a tinge of guilt (for lack of a better phrase). So to that I offer these lyrics from the song that so many of us have had the impression of this week...
"I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.
And I will always love you."
Hang in there bud... there are so many of us who love you... most of all, your Daddy... who has always loved you... from the moment he knew you were going to be a part of his world... and beyond the last breath he took.
Be strong Andrew. Be. Strong.
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