My Big Accomplishment

For the weekend was getting out of the house today to go grocery shopping. Which in and of itself really does not seem like that big of an ordeal... but trust me... in the mood I've been in for the last couple of days it was more than a big deal.... it was like climbing Mount Everest... it meant making myself somewhat presentable... brushing my hair and teeth... getting dressed in something more than the nightie I'd been hanging around in for the last two days... and dealing with people. The last part was the part that kept me from going until later this afternoon. I just couldn't do it... but eventually I did. And I only broke down for a moment when the last parking spot was in front of Quiznos... one day I'll have control of my emotions back... one day I'll feel safe in my own town again... but for now I'll take making it out of the grocery store with groceries (as opposed to just leaving the cart in the aisle) as a good step forward... especially since the last time I did any heavy shopping was with Jim in June... shopping alone just is not the same.