Hey Sexy,
Remember this picture? It was taken exactly 5 years ago today. We look so young and naive in it. I can still remember the sound of your voice when I called to say, "guess what! I'm in town... where are you?" Crazy, silly me got a burr in my bonnet and decided to make my Presidents Day weekend a long week and drove down to Denver to spend time with you while you worked somewhere in south Denver.
We spent the week playing tourists... I remember you were excited to take me to Traildust for dinner. I smile every time I drive past there now. I've been back to Denver with and without you many times since and nothing compares to that week spent back then.
I have so many memories to thank you for.
I'm glad I have a handful of pictures to remember these moments by. I wish I had more. For now I just keep playing the videos of you over and over again. I found one I didn't remember that I had... it's of you last year when you were home... snoring on the couch... what I would give to hear that sound next to me again.
I mixed together your voice mail messages this week... I thought about putting them in a slide show with some of your pictures and posting them on the sidebar like I have the other videos... but for now I'm going to selfishly keep the sound of your voice to myself. The time isn't right to share your messages to me yet. Maybe a couple of months from now I'll feel differently.
This week has been rough. Really rough. Really, really, really rough. I make a half a step forward and end up three paces behind. I am so use to having your opinion and feedback with most everything I've done... I feel like a little girl playing a grownup right now. I have to make peace with decisions that no woman should ever have presented to her. And all because of someone else's myopic decision.
I love you so much Babe. I miss you more and more with every passing day. We were no strangers to absence making the heart grow fonder. If it could at all be possible... I love you more today... even in your absence... than I did the first time I fell in love with you. How I wish you were here to hold me. I miss you. You are my everything. I am so incomplete without you.
Love always and forever,
Tara Ann
2 comments:
Tara-I am so sorry about everything you are going through!It just plain sucks there are no other words for it.I wish there was something i could do....I can truly tell how much you love him and I hope some justice will be served.
Thanks Betsy. You're right, there really aren't any words for it. You out of everyone understands the most how it is to watch the one you love walk out the door and not return home. Thanks for checking in on me :) We need to quit talking about getting together and actually GET together ;)
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