Oh, I know, this is greatly my fault and my perception, but the beauty behind it is that I've come to realize through years of anxiety and trial and error, that I can't save the whole world from making stupid mistakes... and as such... I'm deciding to just cut my losses now... rather than getting involved and wasting my time and energy.
As for the other players, well, the true colors came out there too... just like they always do... and sadly... it's time for me to just move on. I can't hold on to everything and everyone who had a part in that world. It would have been nice to continue the facade, but the truth is I'm not a bullshitter and have a hard time even exchanging pleasantries if I know you're putting up a front. Things were said in private and shared with other parties despite asking for the use of discretion because of the smallness of my world... and so with that I'm done. Fool me once, shame on you... fool me twice... shame on me.... and since I should've followed my gut after listening to the conversations earlier in the summer... well... shame on me...
No need to say anymore.
6 comments:
Hey I hear ya there. I mean, I don't know your exact situation at this point, but I am the same way and have been burnt more than my fair share. Whatever, you're awesome.
Wow, heavy stuff. I wish I had some awesome quote for you like you had for me when I was going through some crap like this.
Sorry your going through it, but your right, sometimes it's better to cut your losses.
Thanks gals. I'll fill you both in soon...
I try to give everyone a clean slate when I meet them, but at the same time I pay attention to my gut instincts and keep them in check... very rarely, are they wrong....
I'm sure you've read this before, but I read it from time to time, especially when I feel someone has done me wrong.... kinda makes me feel better about it all:
Reason, Season and Lifetime
People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.
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When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.
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LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life.
I hope this brings you some comfort.
Thinking about you.
Thanks Auggie... that is the perfect and most sage advice regarding this particular situation. if there's one more thing I have learned through all of this it is that there is a reason why people make it to your present with you... and there's a reason why others are left behind with the last season... I've got enough baggage right now without trying to bring along others old ghosts too :)
I may just have to steal your comment and make it into an actual post... it's very fitting to the thoughts that have been rambling along in my mind the last couple of weeks.
I'm glad that made sense to you... That poem has helped me thru some difficult times, losing people through various times in my life, but it's helped me understand when I look back. I'm wishing you a wonderful week ahead.
Auggiedoggysmom
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