I feel like there's so much I should tell you. So much to share with you. And yet, I feel as if there's so much you already know... and just don't realize. Or maybe you do realize it all. You're a sharper cookie than you've been given credit for. I think you're one of those rare people who just can't be bothered with the minor details of life (like knowing which month it is or which month comes next) because you've got so much more to offer the world than the standard academic person. Seeing you in action in August only confirmed that.
Speaking of of seeing you... I've always thought you resembled your dad. I know many think you look more like her, but it's just those lips that are deceiving. The Durgan genes are very strong. You have your father's ears. His nose. His hands. His demeanor. Do you EVER have your dad's demeanor. I swear when I closed my eyes while you were on the stand I could hear your father.... You share the same voice, speech pattern, even intonation and emphasis. And the sarcasm. Oh my God the sarcastic, dry, witty humor and comebacks... in a way you're the luckiest of us all. If there's such a thing as lucky in this whole scenario we're calling our life. You get to look in the mirror and see your father every day. The rest of us get to flip through pictures.
Andrew, I hope you never lose sight of who you are. I hope you continue to be the man your dad knew you could be. I worry about the influence of those around you. I'm concerned about your exposure to things and substances you probably wouldn't otherwise encounter. I worry that the same people who have sheltered you from the truth of this situation will miss the danger of those things in their own backyard. I hope you can remember to trust with your head and to lead with your heart.
There's a book full of memories and well wishes with your name on it. I hope it finds its way to you. I gave it to your dad's dad. Hopefully, one day soon, it will find its way to you. So many people loved your father and by extension continue to love you.
Happy birthday Andrew Ryan Durgan. 14 is going to be a big year for you. I just feel it.
Love,
Tara Ann
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