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Sunday, June 20, 2010

Happy Father's Day...


I've had all these thoughts running a muck in my mind today. Thoughts that once put together would've made a wonderful post. And then I sat down to clear my head and put them all in one place... and find myself just numb... the tears streaming down my face. Those closest to me know I've been trying some new things these last couple of months. We'll just call it a New Year's resolution gone awry. One that's been working my special Guardian Angel's patience and strength for sure.

The bottom line is this: nobody can replace Jim. There was only one James Glenn Durgan in the world. There will only ever be one man as special and unique as he was. I really am trying hard to not live in my past. To not judge where I am at today by where I was supposed to be. It's hard though. Especially when the plans included him. Included a reason to celebrate Father's Day between the three of us. Plans cut short and changed through no fault of our own.

(Taken on the best Father's Day ever. One we spent together.)



4 comments:

Shan said...

The very frustrating things we can't control, like Jim's death or my disability, are just temporary setbacks in the overall picture. Fortunately we both have family & friends that won't let us give up when we feel like it.

The Muries said...

I am thinking of you. :)

ManicMandee said...

:( sucks.

I have no other words to really say. It just sucks.

Tara Ann said...

Thanks everyone, I really do appreciate the support :) I keep trying to compartmentalize and the truth is there are some things I need to deal with...