This new song by Jewel is one of them. Not because of things left unsaid. I was lucky enough to have a love like this song. One in which little, if not anything, was left unsaid. The good, the bad, the ugly, the compliments, the "I love you, I miss you," the feelings, wants, desires, goals. It was all said and laid out. All there. When Jim didn't walk back in the door like he was scheduled to on this day two years ago my life as I knew it fell apart all over again. But the one thing I've always been able to hold on to, through all of this, is that there wasn't anything left unsaid. The night before he flew out we'd had an off night. The constant barrage of phone calls and texts trying to pin down exactly where he was at had taken upset our usually easy going coupledom. But because it wasn't not in our nature to ignore the white elephant in the room we did what we did when one of those bumps showed up in our road. Talked. And talked. And talked. Until late into the night. Through my getting ready for work. A few more calls while I was at the office. Through a leisurely lunch. By the time we kissed goodbye in the parking lot life was good again. He knew how I felt. I knew how he felt. And every time I hear this song I think about that. How it would've been so much harder to deal with loosing him if he hadn't known how much I loved him. If I hadn't known how much he wanted to be with me.
I've said it before and I'll say it again... always hold your loved ones for one more second... it's never long enough... the only regret I have from that last day of Jim's life was rushing him off the phone because I needed to jump in the shower... notknowing that within the hour he'd be gone from my life forever.
Hold them tight. Love them long.
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