Can't Find the Words...

But luckily a friend of mine could... as I was trying to type this post and stumbling over and over my own words this quote came to my attention: "It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live." ~ Albus Dumbledore

Going into this day I had a major case of the what ifs, could've beens, and should've beens...

I took a walk last night to clear my head. The poppies are in full bloom. I couldn't clear my mind. More than that, I'm not sure I wanted to. I came to the conclusion I've completely deleted an entire year from my life. I make myself and everyone around me a year younger than they are. I have no sense of time. Of space. For now that's okay. I need this time to feel the grief and sorrow that I've ignored for so long. I owe that much to myself. I owe that much to the both of them.

“That we find a crystal or a poppy beautiful means that we are less alone, that we are more deeply inserted into existence than the course of a single life would lead us to believe.” ~ John Berger

Save a piece of cake for me my angels.