Hi Sexy,
I can hardly believe that tomorrow will be the start of the seventh week without you. Everyone keeps telling me that it will get easier, and yet it does not.
Seven weeks ago tonight you held me in your arms and promised me forever. Neither of us could have ever imagined that the next day would be our last lunch, our last hug, our last kiss, our last call... neither of us would have ever thought that last night would be the last time I would feel the caress of your fingers, the linger of your kisses, or the warmth of your breath... or that it would be the last night I would fall asleep in your arms to the rhythm of your snoring. I can still picture you standing in the front room with the hall light shinning behind your athletic build looking for me... only to find me texting you sweet "I love yous" in the other room because I was such a nerd and missing you before you even left for the weekend.
From the minute you walked into my life I knew you were the man for me. I could not picture my life without you in it. And yet, that is where I am left tonight.
Not by your choice.
Not by mine.
But by the hands of a very selfish person.
I think of you every minute of my day. I cry myself to sleep each morning (I haven't gone to bed before midnight since the last night you were home). I reach for the phone to dial your number, only to remember that you won't be answering. I am lost without you. I miss my confidant and best friend.
I ask myself daily, why?
Why you?
Why us?
Why the kids?
Why now?
Why when you had so much going for you would someone be so cruel, senseless, and selfish?
Why?
I miss you more than I will ever be able to express in written words or in tears. I have cried until I did not think I could cry anymore; and yet the tears keep coming.
I will love you until my own dying day.
One day I'll be with you, and we'll look back... and you'll laugh at how big of a "girl" I have been over the last seven weeks... until then Sexy... tell everyone on the other side I love them... give them all an extra hug from me... and stay by my side... I need your strength.
Love forever,
Me*
Seven weeks ago tonight you held me in your arms and promised me forever. Neither of us could have ever imagined that the next day would be our last lunch, our last hug, our last kiss, our last call... neither of us would have ever thought that last night would be the last time I would feel the caress of your fingers, the linger of your kisses, or the warmth of your breath... or that it would be the last night I would fall asleep in your arms to the rhythm of your snoring. I can still picture you standing in the front room with the hall light shinning behind your athletic build looking for me... only to find me texting you sweet "I love yous" in the other room because I was such a nerd and missing you before you even left for the weekend.
From the minute you walked into my life I knew you were the man for me. I could not picture my life without you in it. And yet, that is where I am left tonight.
Not by your choice.
Not by mine.
But by the hands of a very selfish person.
I think of you every minute of my day. I cry myself to sleep each morning (I haven't gone to bed before midnight since the last night you were home). I reach for the phone to dial your number, only to remember that you won't be answering. I am lost without you. I miss my confidant and best friend.
I ask myself daily, why?
Why you?
Why us?
Why the kids?
Why now?
Why when you had so much going for you would someone be so cruel, senseless, and selfish?
Why?
I miss you more than I will ever be able to express in written words or in tears. I have cried until I did not think I could cry anymore; and yet the tears keep coming.
I will love you until my own dying day.
One day I'll be with you, and we'll look back... and you'll laugh at how big of a "girl" I have been over the last seven weeks... until then Sexy... tell everyone on the other side I love them... give them all an extra hug from me... and stay by my side... I need your strength.
Love forever,
Me*
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I'm heartbroken for you! I wish there was something I could do to make even a minute easier for you.
Call me for anything anything you need!
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