She said:
I saw this and couldn't resist. Okay, so I'm bored. Anyway, I thought it was kind of fun...."
And I'm saying... it's Friday and I need a cute alliteration for a caption... so here it goes:
Do you know what the #1 song was the day that you were born?
The #1 song around the day Jim was conceived was "Everybody is a Star" by Sly & the Family Stone.
The #1 song around the day I was conceived was "Got to Give it Up Pt. 1" by Marvin Gaye.
The #1 song the day Jim was born was "The Tears of a Clown" by Smokey Robinson & the Miracles.
The #1 song the day I was born was "(Love is) Thicker Than Water" by Andy Gibb.
The #1 song the day Jim graduated high school was "One More Try" by George Michaels.
The #1 song the day I graduated high school was "Tha Crossroads" by Bone thugs-n-harmony.
The #1 song the day Andrew was born was "Fantasy" by Mariah Carey.
The #1 song the day Beth was born was "Candle in the Wind" by Elton John.
The #1 song the day we met was "Independent Women Pt. 1" by Destiny's Child.
The #1 song the day Jim first said he loved me was "Independent Women Pt. 1" by Destiny's Child.
The #1 song the day I knew Jim was the one was "Independent Women Pt. 1" by Destiny's Child.
The #1 song the Thanksgiving that changed us forever was "My Love" by Justin Timberlake featuring T.I.
The #1 song the day Jim handed me the Taco Bell packet was "Irreplaceable" by Beyonce.
The #1 song the last day Jim walked through our door was "I Kissed a Girl" by Katy Perry.
Now it's your turn...give it a try...here is the link...just for fun.
In other news... I'm seriously considering taking this blog private for awhile... but I'm torn... on one hand I have really appreciated the extra support from complete strangers and friends who really care (you guys know who you are and rock!)... but on the other hand... well for each one of you, I've got 3 or 4 "stalkers." Don't get me wrong... I've found some pretty cool blogs that way... it's just that from looking at the blog stats I can narrow down these stalkers and I don't particularly feel comfortable sharing my thoughts and feelings with them anymore. The add anxiety of feeling like I'm living in a fishbowl... it's like I told the D.A.'s office... there are people that are here (both in our lives at the moment and through this blog) to support us... and there are people who are here to do nothing more than live vicariously through our pain just so in the end they can say the knew yada... yada... yada... you get my point. It's not support. It's a twisted voyeuristic way in which they make themselves feel self-important... and I'm done giving their drunk asses a look into my life.
7 comments:
Oh sadness if you go private...can I still play?
Wow... how sad you have to feel that way, but I understand why you do. There's been things I've wanted to say here but haven't because you've implied there are things going on in the background that might cause problems in the long run...
It's funny, I haved mixed thoughts.. I kinda "stumbled" upon your blog from reading someone elses blog that I stumbled upon also... Your story captivated me, I spend an entire weekend reading it.. I've cried with you, laughed with you... Prayed for you.. Thought of you on Friday the 13th.. and it's the first thing I read when I get home, cuz I want to see what kind of day you've had. And I've never even met you. I hope that doesn't make me a stalker... I guess I hadn't thought about it like that before. Anyway I can totally understand how you would want to take this private especially if there are people out there using your thoughts and grief for other purposes.. We live in such a jacked up world, it blows me away sometimes, but I'm preaching to the choir now, aren't I?
Regards.
Cami - you know the answer to that ;)
Auggie - I don't consider you one of my stalkers :) I look forward to seeing a "hit" from you and a few other 'strangers' because I know that you send nothing but loving good thoughts out for me and they help so much.
It probably sounds silly to a lot of people especially if they've read just how much of my life I've put out there... but there was a time when those posts were needed to push some buttons... and even though it appears that there is a lot of our relationship out there for the world to read... truth be told that's hardly a tenth of it. There's still a lot I hold near and dear and will only probably ever share with those closest to Jim and I.
I'm torn too. The parts I'm struggling with are the not so nice thoughts that are put out there by the very select few I'm feeling the negative barbs from every time they peek in. It may sound silly. I've worked so hard to develop my intuitive nature throughout all of this... but what I've not been able to do is shut off the negativity of others and still be able to focus on the love sent out by everyone else.
I just need to figure out how to find a balance in all of it. And last week there was just so much more happening that it was overwhelming for a couple of days. I'll likely ride it out for awhile longer... especially since I'm noticing that those same individuals are only reading the posts that appear to be 'dramatic' from the outside... they never made it to the end of this post... go figure... maybe all it really requires is a change in my format.
Please, feel free to keep on checking in on me. I do wish for the few of you out there that really do sincerely care, that I could say more. Perhaps one day once this has all passed I'll be able to...
I felt the same way with my blog Tara. I finally had to go private when the nasties became blatant. It's just weird to know that someone who doesn't really like you is reading your most personal blogs. I'm glad you've shared your experience though. :) Hang in there.
Thanks Teddy :) It is weird to think that. If I could figure out a way to not be so overly sensitive to everything then I think I could handle it better than I feel like I am right now. Maybe all I really needed for the time being is a simple internet tantrum... I'll know for certain by the end of the week one way or another. Right now I've got to focus on another agenda item this week...
Thanks for encouraging me to share it all with you.
You gals are all truly the best :)
I hope I'm not a stalker. I don't mean to be.
I would be sorry if you went private but I could understand why. I doubt I could share my thoughts with the world under the best of circumstances, let alone the worst.
Oh Wendy, nope, you're not one either :)
I'm referring more to individuals who Jim or I have interacted with at one time or another throughout our lives. Like I eluded to, their thoughts when they check the blog are so negative and venomous... and I don't think that even they realize it... honestly, I know I sound crazy... but we all know the power of positive thinking... unfortunately, negative thinking has the same impact.
Support from individuals like yourself and Auggie and the few others out there that have left comments have meant as much to me as the support I've received from the comments left by people I known IRL.
Don't worry everyone, if and when I decide to go private I'll be selective as to who can still see it, but you all have earned your "pass" ;)
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