A Birthday Wish

I have promised myself that I wont go down to their level... but as today comes and goes... I can't help but think... Even though I know that she doesn't stand a chance of reading this anytime soon... How does it feel to have a birthday when you took his away? Bet you didn't think about never being able to have another birthday drinking binge when you made the decisions you made... Someone, please hand the bitch her some pruno... maybe she'll choke on enjoy it.

And goodness... what's it feel like to know that 41 years ago you (because I know you're still checking the blog) brought something capable of conspiring to and committing such a violent and heinous act into this world? Please do better by them. For him.

Jim always told me that he knew she was the type of individual to end up in the deepest, darkest, recesses of hell... he used to "joke" about it... how no matter what he'd done in his life it didn't even equate to the hell she'd put so many people through... the things she'd said and done to him... the games... the manipulations... how he he may be damned, but she was going to be damned... I don't think that even he could imagine the depths of truth within those statements.

I hope her birthday is as miserable as my days continue to be when his birthday came and went and he was not here to celebrate it with... and when my birthday rolled around I could not feel his warm embrace...