51 Weeks...

Hi Sexy,

I know for some it might seem odd to see a picture of a slug where your mug usually is. But if they only knew the inside joke they'd smile and chuckle and find it fitting. I've teased you for years about being a slug and slow on the uptake in the romance department. Always a gentle teasing because we both knew it wasn't always the case... just the days when you had to be knocked in the noggin to realize what was going on around you because the candles and low lights weren't enough... or your distracted response lacked a certain romantic charm :) You always eventually got to where you needed to be, jut not necessarily at that moment... like a slug.

So when I was walking around the yard the other day and stopped here... at this spot where you stood a year to the day before...


and I found that little guy stretched out trying with all his might to scurry across the yard. I knew for a moment you were with me. By the time I ran in and got my camera he'd curled up in a ball and I had to be back to work so I couldn't wait for him to stretch out, but I still had to take a picture of him.

The slug was a few days after the four leaf clover I found in the yard... I hate to be selfish... but I'm enjoying finding the little tokens... keep sending them... because I'm falling apart this week. So when I find little gems like the song below, the slug, and the four leafed clover... I know you're close by...




When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

Everywhere I look it's the last place we were... the last thing we did... The. Last.

A year is sneaking up on us. A full year... and I still find myself expecting you to be on the other end of the phone.

I miss you Honey. More than I'll ever be able to express here.

Love always,
Tara Ann