Missing Him

Sometimes I remember a quote from a movie that didn't mean much at the time, but hits home now... like this quote from Armageddon that shows how I feel when I'm flying back and forth to Colorado...

Harry : Come on, God, just a little help. It's all I'm asking.
Max: I think we're close enough, He might have heard ya.

I keep thinking the higher in the sky my plane is the closer to Heaven I might be... thing is... crying randomly at 30,000 feet in the sky makes the strangers next to you more than a bit nervous.

Another thing about this movie that I've always liked... every time I here the song below I think of Jim. I always have. From the very first week I met him. I love the soundtrack to the movie and I had popped the disc in the rental car for one of our trips over to Idaho Falls to catch a new movie. Unfortunately, I forgot to take it out. A couple of years later Jim found the disc on sale somewhere and bought it for me (because that's the way he was :) ).



I just want to stay in this moment forever with him, still. I was in the parking lot of our last kiss last week. The trees were in full bloom like they were this time last year. The feelings were overwhelming. It was like he knew he wasn't coming back. He stopped his car behind mine to give me one more kiss before leaving for the airport. He pulled me close to him and just held me for a moment. As we pulled away from that last embrace, he kissed my forehead and wiped the tear from my cheek. If I'd have only known that was going to be the first of many tears I would have begged him to stay home for one more weekend.