He Dies...

I hadn't ever taken the time to sit down and watch Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium. If memory serves me right Jim saw it with his children and told me I needed to see it too. And then life happened, he got pneumonia, etc., etc., ya'll know the stories by now.

Anyway, it was on HBO a few nights ago (I'm kind of loving that HBO is included in the free pack of cable at the condo right now). And I had just walked in the door from a very long day at work so I felt compelled to plunk it on the couch and watch it. I was already a bit weepy from exhaustion and every thing else that was going on. So when this scene came on I completely lost it. As in cried for the remainder of the movie... and about an hour afterward.

Grab some kleenexes and watch the 3 minute clip above (sadly I can't find a version to embed)... here's the text which is still pretty powerful, but honestly, Dustin Hoffman does an amazing job delivering the scene.

"When King Lear dies in Act V, do you know what Shakespeare has written? He's written 'He dies.' That's all, nothing more. No fanfare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words. The culmination of the most influential work of dramatic literature is 'He dies.' It takes Shakespeare, a genius, to come up with 'He dies.' And yet every time I read those two words, I find myself overwhelmed with dysphoria. And I know it's only natural to be sad, but not because of the words 'He dies.' but because of the life we saw prior to the words.
I've lived all five of my acts, Mahoney, and I am not asking you to be happy that I must go. I'm only asking that you turn the page, continue reading... and let the next story begin. And if anyone asks what became of me, you relate my life in all its wonder, and end it with a simple and modest 'He died.'"

You see, it hit home. Really close to home. Because Jim had the world's shittiest obituary. It's truly not much. But then that doesn't surprise me. I have a copy of his mother's obituary that if it is five sentences long I'd be surprised. I guess I'm used to those that read like a story. That tell you the amazing characteristics of the person who has passed on. That truly mourn the passing of a loved one. It makes me that much more thankful for this blog and the ability to share with the world (all 15 of you who actually view it) what an amazing man Jim was and just how much he was loved. Is loved. Continues to be loved.

My Thoughts Exactly...

Too young to be old and too old to be young. - Fried Green Tomatoes

TOWANDA!!!!!!!!

Missing Him

Sometimes I remember a quote from a movie that didn't mean much at the time, but hits home now... like this quote from Armageddon that shows how I feel when I'm flying back and forth to Colorado...

Harry : Come on, God, just a little help. It's all I'm asking.
Max: I think we're close enough, He might have heard ya.

I keep thinking the higher in the sky my plane is the closer to Heaven I might be... thing is... crying randomly at 30,000 feet in the sky makes the strangers next to you more than a bit nervous.

Another thing about this movie that I've always liked... every time I here the song below I think of Jim. I always have. From the very first week I met him. I love the soundtrack to the movie and I had popped the disc in the rental car for one of our trips over to Idaho Falls to catch a new movie. Unfortunately, I forgot to take it out. A couple of years later Jim found the disc on sale somewhere and bought it for me (because that's the way he was :) ).



I just want to stay in this moment forever with him, still. I was in the parking lot of our last kiss last week. The trees were in full bloom like they were this time last year. The feelings were overwhelming. It was like he knew he wasn't coming back. He stopped his car behind mine to give me one more kiss before leaving for the airport. He pulled me close to him and just held me for a moment. As we pulled away from that last embrace, he kissed my forehead and wiped the tear from my cheek. If I'd have only known that was going to be the first of many tears I would have begged him to stay home for one more weekend.

And at the End of the Day

Jim and I had a lot of unique opportunities to see many movies "on the big screen" because when you're on the road there is one thing that is the same in every town... and that is... there's a movie theater. Even on vacation, we'd find a theater. We found one when we were in Oregon. And since we were on vacation I got to pick the movie. So I picked Tristan & Isolde (and Jim was such a dear to sit through it).

Last week the movie was playing on t.v. and I flipped past it because I knew I couldn't sit through it right now...

Then I found it in the $5 bin at K-mart.

Then I read a paragraph (through something quite random and completely unrelated to the movie itself) about Isolde. Isolde loved a man she could not have because of a situation she was personally in. It's a classic love triangle story. As such, it has been said, that she is a type of goddess of undying love. A sign that the love you share is eternal, regardless of the situation... just like the love Jim and I continue to share.

With this many pushes of the movie in front of me this week I decided I better put the DVD in tonight... and was doing okay until the ending scene...

As Tristan lays dying in Isolde's arms on the river bank she says, "Know that I love you Tristan. Wherever you go, whatever you see. I will always be with you."

And Tristan replies, as he takes his final breath, "You were right. I don't know if life is greater than death. But love was more than either."

Thanks Babe. I needed that tonight... even if it took me thirty minutes to quit crying.

Spoken Like Grandpa Warren

I'm vegging today... taking a mental holiday from the real world (as if I've been living in the real world at all lately, but that's another post)... flipping channels I stumbled across a classic Doris Day movie and it reminded me of my stepdad's father who lived with my parents a few years ago. He wasn't very fond of sheep. Not very many men in this part of the country are. This is cattle country doncha know. So of course I nearly spit out my Mt. Dew when Peter Graves character, Jason, proclaims: "You know, it takes money, capital, brains and sweat to raise cattle, but any idiot with a two-bit dog and a Winchester can raise sheep."

This movie is making me giggle like crazy... especially since its premise is that it takes place in Wyoming... "yeah to the first woman sheepherder in Wyoming" - lol... maybe this movie is reminding me more of my own mother... it would be like her to do what Doris Day's character, Josie, did... and with all the passion and fervor she showed doing it!

But you'll have to watch it to find out :)

*This was 2008's fair project*
(picture taken by my mom; edited by me)

I Know Who ISN'T Getting an Oscar

Jon Stewart for his performance tonight...

And the stupid writers... my God people... you've had three months off and a year to write stuff for tonight... and this is the best you could come up with???

It's not even a full ten minutes into the show and I'm already flipping the channel... I mean come on... the bit about how to find your stripper name... and then taking a dig at Olympia Dukakis is just bad taste... that's why the joke fell like a brick in the front row...

And poor Jon... Jon was too stupid to see his poorly written stand up act falling to pieces before him... of course it didn't help that he was all but falling on his face trying to read the teleprompter...

Let's start a petition to bring back Billy Crystal!

Completely Unmotivated

The weather stinks... again... and I'm really starting to get sick of it...

I've got a dozen red roses to take pictures of but I lost my decent lighting this morning when this storm moved in and it's just kind of made me feel... blah... :(

It's a Sunday kind of day... the kind that follows a Saturday night kind of love... I'm already missing Waddles. He's safely made it back to Utah already... maybe that's why I'm feeling completely unmotivated... it's always hard to get back into the groove after a perfect weekend... I mean, wine, roses, pizza by candle light, and the ever classic Rainman ... what more could a girl ask for...

Ahhhhhh... herein seems to be the problem... it's the cosmos once again ever conspiring after me...

"Pisces - It may seem as if time is running backwards. Earlier in the weekend you were quite serious, but that switches to fantasy mode by this evening when you should perhaps be thinking about the workweek ahead. But you are right on schedule, so don't judge your emotional state now by society's standards. You will likely have enough time to refocus your energy tomorrow without having to worry about it tonight.
By Rick Levine
Sunday, February 24, 2008"


So, in the absence of any real news that I should write about... I'm leaving you with a picture of my boss' dog, Tucker, that I took this afternoon...

I think his expression says it all...

Ex Football Player Wins Dance Competition???

Thursday, November 16, 2006

6:33 PM - Ex Football Player Wins Dance Competition???
Current mood: amused Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

So I have to admit that I've not really watched Dancing with the Stars... but it blows my mind that an ex football player (and not even one I really liked to watch - pthhhhhhhh Dallas Cowboys) beats out MARIO LOPEZ???!!!???What is this world coming to?????????